I'm impatient. Really, REALLY, REALLY, impatient. I like things to happen the way I want them to happen, at the exact time I want them to happen. I know, right now your thinking, doesn't everyone? Well, I suppose this is true, but I have a really hard time waiting for things.
I have to believe that a lot of this comes from the fact that a lot of good things happen to me. In the past year I've finished my master's degree, visited three countries, gotten married, gotten into and started a PhD program, been accepted to a training program, been awarded a fellowship, and been accepted to present at a conference. So I suppose it's safe to say that things are going pretty well for me. But, (and this is a really big but) for everything that I can list that I've gotten there are things that I haven't gotten. Internships and scholarships that I was rejected from, my first choice school for my master's that turned me down (I imagine they were laughing while they were writing that letter), I was not awarded another training position, and a hundred other things that didn't work out the way I planned.
So why exactly does this make me impatient? I think its because I image that things will always work out. Sure, when I get rejected from something I'm devastated. I mope around the house for a few days, cry in my office, and eat a lot of chocolate. But at the end of the day I honestly believe if I try hard enough, for a long enough period of time, I will eventually succeed. I'm not sure how I got into this mindset, but it has served me well. Except for the fact that it make me really impatient, because I believe I will eventually succeed and I would really like to get to that part. I'd really like to skip the parts that I"m in right now and get to the part where I am succeeding.
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